When Fear Paralyzes, Love’s Got Legs

My son is afraid I’m going to die. This fear leaks out right about the time he shuts his eyes at night. He’s worried because anything can happen. Tonight’s specific “anything” is accompanied by fear of violence and death in general. He can hardly utter the words. It makes him gasp for breath, wide-eyed and choking atContinue reading “When Fear Paralyzes, Love’s Got Legs”

Advent Day 14: Fishes Kiss

  At the end of the day, after my boys don’t listen when it’s time to get out of the tub and they don’t listen when I tell them to put their pajamas on and they don’t listen when I tell them to brush their teeth and they don’t listen when I tell them toContinue reading “Advent Day 14: Fishes Kiss”

Held

We spent the evening with friends of ours discussing the aches and opportunities of the church we’re attending, and while our kids ran around their living room and up the stairs, and I scratched the ears of one of their pups, I said the thing I keep saying about this church community: I laugh everyContinue reading “Held”

Basement After-Dinner Theater

Our kids have taken to putting on shows for us in our basement. They take turns choosing the plot, often involving a pirate queen, the Incredible Hulk, and either a cowboy or sheriff or good pirate or Star Wars character (take your pick). There is always some battle involved and there is always some mid-sceneContinue reading “Basement After-Dinner Theater”

The Things We Love

I am hanging out in the bright afternoon heat. Our kids have found other kids to be this afternoon’s best friends. My husband is in a baseball uniform and catcher’s gear, waiting for his next at-bat. It’s Father’s Day, and there’s nowhere else I’d rather be, around this dusty diamond, squinting in the light. There’sContinue reading “The Things We Love”

That Time of the Month

There have been a grand total of about 36 months of my adult life (let’s say, after 17 or so) that I have not worried about, wondered if, hoped for, stressed over, prayed for or prayed against being pregnant. My reproductive history is such that I get pregnant when I don’t want to be pregnant,Continue reading “That Time of the Month”

You Better Watch Out

You know that Christmas song, “I’m getting nuttin’ for Christmas?” My son had one of those days today. It’s like the part of his brain that is designed to say “This is kind of a dumb idea” got unplugged so the part of his brain that is designed to say “I wonder what will happenContinue reading “You Better Watch Out”

Why do we need spiritual leaders?

In a team building exercise at work today, we were given fifteen people and a life raft that only holds nine. The Titanic is sinking, basically, so who gets in and who stays behind? My team kept Obama but dumped Jay-Z, we kept the carpenter but dumped the line cook at Denny’s, we kept theContinue reading “Why do we need spiritual leaders?”

Things Beyond My Control

I am writing this in Word on my laptop in the living room because of things that are beyond my immediate control. A week or so ago, the buzzing from the doorbell xylophone in the hallway at our new home began buzzing so persistently and at a gradually increasing buzz rate that Brandon decided toContinue reading “Things Beyond My Control”