With all of the crises of the world spinning around, demanding my attention, I think to myself, It’s been a while; maybe it’s gone now. Maybe all of that self-pity and loneliness got squeezed out with Mom’s cancer, work, and kids taking up all of the space. A few weeks pass and I haven’t thoughtContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 16: For Better, For Worse”
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Advent Day 14: Fishes Kiss
At the end of the day, after my boys don’t listen when it’s time to get out of the tub and they don’t listen when I tell them to put their pajamas on and they don’t listen when I tell them to brush their teeth and they don’t listen when I tell them toContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 14: Fishes Kiss”
Advent Day 13: Oh God, Help Me
I rode with my boyfriend from some youth group gathering back to his house, staring out my window as dusk turned to night. We took the curves of Geauga Lake Road and descended into the woods’ shadows. “What kind of God would save a murderer,” I spat, “just because he believed, and not me? I’mContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 13: Oh God, Help Me”
Advent Day 12: Psalm 36:9
When I can’t find the light, I look for it in small things glowing. I flick a switch to ignite white bulbs on branches, each reflected four-eyed in the double window pane, multiplying possibility. I find it captured in my bridal veil, cascade of white descending from a frame a foot above my desk twelve years behind me. But some nightsContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 12: Psalm 36:9”
Advent Day 9: Who Is This God?
I have a lot of friends who are not real interested in God. I totally get it. God has been portrayed to them as an angry tyrant, a wrathful, pissy bully who snubs some and blesses others, condemns men, women and children to death, condones murder, establishes rules no one can follow and judges thoseContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 9: Who Is This God?”
Advent Day 7: Psalm 46
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. There is a river whose streams make glad the city ofContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 7: Psalm 46”
Advent Day 6: Do Not Be Afraid
The day of my mom’s biopsy, after hearing what the doctor thought they found, I handed over my valet ticket and filled the waiting time with Google statistics and life expectancies. I felt my face hollow out and droop. I thanked the driver, ever forgetful about the tip, and drove, sobs and a faucet ofContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 6: Do Not Be Afraid”
Advent Day 5: The Earth Is Filled
I try to find one thing of marvel every morning on my way to work. Once you start this habit it isn’t easy to break; the earth brims over with beauty, from the early crisp air frosting blades of grass to fallen leaves on water, even the man-made architecture mirrors the majesty of my surroundingsContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 5: The Earth Is Filled”
Advent Day 4: Ghosts of Christmases Past
As the colored lights twinkled on the tree, the gifts were exchanged with Grandpa’s perfect scripted “Santa” on the labels to each of his seven children and their spouses and their children. Each of us cousins sat in our Christmas best, holiday dressed, lined up on the davenport with a pile of unopened presents inContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 4: Ghosts of Christmases Past”
Advent Day 3: Find Bright
I’ve been writing these advent posts knowing my mom will be in treatments for a cancer that is near impossible to cure and a hard one to fight throughout this advent season. There is a child who cries loudly across the hall from my mom’s room where she waits for her next dose and theContinueContinue reading “Advent Day 3: Find Bright”
Sarah Marie Wells 